i am disappointed

I am disappointed. I'd seen a change and had felt we'd turned a corner, leaving the hurt and pain behind us. But now I know. Your smile, your joking, your statements tell me we were on the same wavelength - even finishing each others sentences. All of it was an act. I'd felt hope and concern returning to my heart, and even felt relief that maybe things had changed for the better. I'd even dared to invest myself again. I got a poor return. But then, I'm not so surprised you know, it all seems familiar and just as uncomfortable. I'd held my breath through it all, waiting for the other shoe to fall. And now it has. So why worry now? I am disappointed. I am not surprised.